Hiya,

Happy New Year!!!!

I know…The year has already started so please forgive my belated greetings.. I was just so carried away with changes, and events that really could not keep up with postcards and emails. 

I wish everybody that their most beautiful, amazing and wonderful dreams and wishes come true! 2012 – is the year of Manifestation! 

And it really had proved to me the Year of Manifestation! I believe it is not only the positive staff can manifest but the ugly one too. So please be careful with what you wish, and don’t let fear run over you! Cause our fears can manifest too. Here is the real life example.

UK had been battered by storms for the last few days, which caused damages, electricity disruption throughout UK. It has been reasonable ok and safe within the walls of my family house, but we could hear strong and musical sounds of wind from everywhere. For few days, it felt like we were living not in the quietest part of the city but in the middle of the busy airport ground. Although, it didn’t bother me much, unlike my older daughter who got caught into the wind fear drama yesterday.    

In the evening, when we were preparing for a bed-time, I asked her to go downstairs and turn the heating off. She was so scared of the wind and was reluctant to go downstairs, she begged me to do it instead. Anyway her tricks didnt work on me, and she had no choice but to get downstairs. Guess what happened next? She was on her 3d step down, when the wind suddenly crushed opened our front door swirling in the house a pile of wet leaves, and pushed off (stripped off) the loft closure upstairs.  My daughter get petrified, she screamed, cried, and was shaken from fear.

I went down, managed to close the door, turned the heating off, put the loft closure in place and lectured my children about power of fear and the way it can now manifest in our lives. 

This is a great example that manifestation process is now on demand. Whatever you wish may actually happen! So be careful with your wishes! Let it be the good ones! 

NAMASTE, LIGHT, LOVE AND ABUNDANCE

This was our New Year salad dish in the shape of dragon!

Happy New Year!

Hi everyone, who reads my blog.

I am finally back to WordPress, beating up my writing fatigue, boring domestic routine and daily procrastination.

Our family (female part of it) moved to Peterborough UK to unite with the male part (husband and father) who had no chances of joining us. Few last months here were spent on sorting out the house, making it look more like a family nest, rather then a ‘bachelor’ pad. I kept myself really busy with lots of small tiring but very human things like cooking, cleaning, shopping, doing homework with kids etc… and I worn myself out so much that i had started looking for a job not even for the financial benefit but for the opportunity to be apart from the children, and do less of the house chores.

Unfortunately or luckily to me there were no good permanent or temporary job with the decent salary away from the house. So here I am, back to writing. Although, I did make a pity attempt to join field sales force within financial industry, I had even overcome the fear of being rejected by strangers when talking to them on the streets (in the shops etc). However, it didn’t work out for me. I was puzzled  ’why’ i didn’t succeed. although I managed to establish a positive rapport with people, they either just recently changed their facilities, or they didn’t feel ready to commit, or they had already had much better deal that I would not be able to match… (btw, I just had a flash back – de-ja-vu moment like I had been writing about this stuff in the past!!! so looks like this lesson is part of my destiny or my ascension path. )

You know me, I can’t just leave it, I need to get to the core of it. When I looked into the situation with the sales job from within my Heart, it became as clear as smokey crystal. The whole sales strategy that have been suggested to promote as well as the whole service behind it turned out to be a well created illusion… and this illusion appeared to be viable only due to the certain amount of people (specifically including those who set up the company and those who work their on permanent basis) that keep believing it. But I didn’t…  Because at the beginning of the job search I set an intention to got / do the job that is right for my heart. At first, that is how I thought about the company, which was presented as the best and most helpful service during recession times for SMEs. So what could be best to help small businesses to survive in such an adverse conditions? However, the reality proved to be a lot different. There are so many companies like that one, each of them claims to be cheap, and actually most of them do offer cheaper services. So my ‘real’  job was in fact just to find that ‘dumb’ person who would be so unaware and just simply happy to have some costs cut. That’s where my heart started to send worrying signals, and i guess on a vibratory level people felt it or I ‘chose’ to enter into the places where I would 100% fail. It’s simply  because that on a very unconscious level I didn’t like lying to people and make them to commit to something that may turn out as not so good in the near future but another trap. Anyway, I was sacked. I didn’t make any money, moreover I spent more money on petrol while driving around, and looking for those clients.

My mind reacted on this ‘failure’ with the obvious conclusion: “it was not my type of a job, and maybe I should concentrate more on things i enjoy (like writing, being with kids and counselling)”. Strangely enough I didn’t dive into those areas with excitement, even though these were most interesting things. No one will argue that writing is ultimately a lot more pleasurable then walking around the streets in the cold…However, I still didn’t progress much with the writing, nor did I really wanted to spend more time with my children. It felt that I had had stuck somewhere, in between of the 3D Earth reality, and my 4D heart desires as well as those dimensional versions of my existence that have not yet crossed each other and may never will.  Maybe I would have carried on being confused, and slightly disorientated, if I would not have been lucky enough to know Sarah Biermann as well as equally lucky to listen to her recent seminar “Psychic explosion. Get ready for 2012″, which you can also enjoy if you click this link http://limitless-one.com/index.asp?ID=266

Don’t get cautious of the seminar’s heading. None of the psychic people had been hurt during the seminar, it was actually about releasing old belief systems and belief patterns that we created in order to live and fully experience life in 3 – dimensional reality!  Thanks to the effective exercise, I burst out in tears..  I have not been crying for a while, so I cried, and could not stop. During the meditation guided by Sarah,I clearly saw myself being trapped in all those beliefs. I then realized that the main reason for my procrastination, and unwillingness to concentrate on writing, upbringing my children etc were due to the subconscious protest against it being imposed on me by the old beliefs that limit my existence and my ascension path on Earth.

Phew.. what an unusual twist! I appeared to be protesting against the rules, that I personally created! I protested against my little world where i felt comfortable for a certain time. I have even temporarily resigned to be a ‘good mother’, cause I lost the meaning of being ‘good’, and it felt so old and limiting. Don’t take me wrong, i don’t starve my children! They are well fed, and dressed and washed. It is about the process (the actual way) of doing it. shall it be well organised and regimented or it can be somewhat different but not least effective? Shall we spend time educating them things we have learnt in the past or give them freedom to make their own research and investigate the nature of things by themselves? How do they / we know that blue is a ‘real’ blue? My little one really does struggle with colors, she forgets its names, and each time she give various color interpretation of the same object.  It made me think that she doesn’t percieve the color in the old way as we used (like being told and accepting it as truth and real). But she may indeed perceive colors in a frequency level, and then even the color of one object may vary depending on the wave / frequency this object is currently in…

As we move to a new dimension  old beliefs became a burden. Subsequently it feels confusing to live and act upon old beliefs. Hence procrastination and unwillingness to deal with daily issues that used to be ‘normal’ in one frequency, don’t feel that much normal in a new frequency.

I am sorry if it sounds way too complicated, but after releasing the tonnes of old beliefs that have been holding me tight in the net, I am so free and ready to step into beautiful unknown, and become a New me, who act upon the inner knowing, and feeling of vibrations rather then upon set of rules. So currently I am feeling like, going to lie down in bed together with my girls, read and laugh with them, kiss and cuddle, and finally fell asleep without looking at the clock.  So… What do you feel like doing?

 

LOVE, LOVE, LOVE TO ALL OF YOU WHO LOOKED AT THIS POST.

 

NAMASTE. WE ARE THE ONE. WE ALWAYS BE!

Life is changing fast, and it certainly present itself sometimes like a box of chocolate (Forest Gump classic metaphor) not necessarily sweet one… or correctly saying box of surprises that not necessarily nice ones…

This post is my ode to female’s strength, wisdom, patience and flexibility. I am not sure whether I mentioned previously that our main players and workers are females. And my mission now is to alter this neglect. So let me introduce all the people (females) that involved in the building and who live with me in pretty tough conditions here in the village:

The youngest and most active female is Victoria, she is only 2.4 yo but pretty skilled in many areas of eco-living. She is watering plants on the picture. Victoria is a little stubborn angel that has her own ideas on life. She loves nature and being outdoor.

Amalia – is my elder daughter, she is 9 now. She helps a lot with Victoria, and the garden. She is very sensitive, shy and on her own track. She can talk to angels (including Victoria) if she wants to.

Ludmila is my mother-in-law. A very rare sample of dedicated mother-in-law, who supports her son’s wife ideas!

She is the main builder and gardener alongside me. She has pretty smile, but she is very tough…

You do recognise me, don’t you? I should not have placed my pic, but this is just a fresh one. I am the creator of my dream. I took it probably too serious, and fast. So I ended up mainly working together with Ludmila on our building.

Apart professionally constructed frame and roof, and that blissful week when we had 3 Alexanders, we do work / build along.

I must admit it aint that easy, and implementing my dream requires tremendous will power and as well as physical strength. Although  events and circumstances do not follow by plan at times, and appear to be unexpectedly difficult, wrong and tiring.

We hardly progressed for the last 15 days. We had a patch of extreme heat , that made working unbearable, then suddenly hot weather changed into week-long cold heavy rains.

One by one we got out of whack, Ludmila and myself caught colds, Amalia started to suffer from sore throat. Victoria developed strange oozing scars and wounds that were / and still are not healing.

It felt like the world turned against me / us. For a period of time i seriously doubted goodness of my spiritual eco-dream, and righteousness of my action. Moreover I started to doubt the worthiness of my life and ‘that wonderful mission’. I lost sense of satisfaction in life. How come – my free and limitless natural existence  appeared to be not that charming and wonderful this time?! Moreover, limitlessness and freedom turned to be fake or illusive cause we were seriously limited by the weather patterns, infections, conficts with neigbours and so on… Nature taunted us with sudden bursts of heat and cold winds, and heavy rains. It is trully impossible to work during the wind especially if one uses dry lime (as part of our insulation raw) in the building process. Sawdust mixed with dry lime is almost killing mixture for the eyes and the throat.  Wearing masks doesnt help much either. Totally gloomy situation affected us badly, even children became angry and out of control.It felt like we were deliberately tortured and tested by our own dreams and desires.

At the end of our tether we quickly packed little bag and drove to the city to seek professional medical help. We are currently staying at my brother’s flat and heal our infections and wounds. I am slowly returning back to my normal calm state of mind, not depressed or negative. From relaxed, and refreshed state i must admit that it was a real hardship test. It will sound old-fashioned but the moral of my pitty story is to stay honest to ourselves, loyal to our dreams, real (not idealistic) with our desires and centered within the heart. Little hesitations can creat huge damages.But little troubles will always test our faith!

Once again real life story proves that women can do anything: juggle gardenning, building,  chores  and kids simultaniously. Most of women I know are great survivors in any conditions. The world maybe man’s but it surely was / is / and will be built by women.

Love, Respect and  Low Bow to all Females on Earth!

Hi everyone, we are happy to announce that we have built 80 sm cordwood wall on the whole perimeter of the house so far! We are just about to fix wodden window frame into the main costruction so then we can move forward with walls. Hurrah for everyone who helped us!

We had an amasing team of 3 Alexanders from St Petersburg, Saratov and Voronej! Guys, you are rock, and always will stay in our hearts and memories about you are already imprinted into our walls!

There are pics below that show our work in progress:

NAMASTE TO EVERYONE. MUCH LOVE AND CORDWOOD FROM RUSSIA!!!

NAMASTE! LOVE, LIGHT AND ABUNDANCE TO EVERYONE! WITH LOVE AND WILD STRAWBERRIES FROM RUSSIA!

Hi everyone, thanks for being so patient! We appeared to have slow internet connection at the village, and i simply have no time to wait until the pics will download, therefore i do posts from the city while visiting friends or family an it happens rather rare.  

I must admit things were tough at times, and my faith and dream had being tested, however regardless all downs we are UP again now and forever! I recommend anyone at this time who feels challenged by life or cirumstances do not defeat, and stay positive about your choice, live your dream even if its getting hard to belive that dream was worth of efforts. Things will and are getting better! Its just ‘usual’ transition times!

Getting back to my main news, we built our frame, adn put up the roof!!!!!!!!!!!! Hurrahhhhhhhhh! I feel fantastic, as things ARE MOVING FORWARD! and there is a HOPE we will manage to finish the house by the winter! We do need volunteers to help us to stack our walls, so if anyone feels touched or called to come and help us please contact me! 

Here is the building process by the pics, i am sure you can understand it without comments. However if you do need more details please drop me a line and i post more details on the frame building.

 

we are now getting ready to start cordwood filling. Thank you to all who support us emotionally, mentally and physically!

PS: we picked tonnes of wild strawberries and bit of wild blackberries, everyone who will be coming to visit us, will have chance to taste authentic divine natural jams made of real forest berries from very pure environment!

Hi and thank you to everyone who supports us and comes to help with the building!

So far we had few people from Moscow and one guy from Norilsk (RF)!!!! Special thank you to Galina and Eugine White, and Konstantin Garnaga!

We had been preparing the cordwood and its getting hot… I guess climate change affected our region strongly. So far we managed to cut into cords roughly 1/6 of theamount required. Also professional builder was invited to amend our foundation (we had slight slope towards the front). as soon as the retard is dried we will start putting up the frame. At the same time we do care about the garden, and already have some organic leefy vegies.

Here is few pics of the process.

Please spread our call to volunteers. We will be greatful for any help!

 

NAMASTE, LOVE AND PEACE

With this in mind, we come up with the GREAT OFFER that is hard to resist!

As some of you may know we fell in love with cordwood houses, and decided to build one for ourselves.

So far we have managed to build foundation for the main house and temp shelter, as well as to plant various veggies, herbs and berries.  

We purchased enough wood and just about to start cordwood building. However we are terribly low in workforce. We have only one male (my husband) who will join us sometime in june, 2 adult females (my mother-i n-law and myself) and 2 very young females (Amalia – 8 yo and Victoria – 2 yo) who we can’t really count as a workforce. LOL

We have no other options but to finish the building before winter, otherwise we will freeze in the shelter, cause it goes as low as minus  30 celcius over there. : )

WE INVITE adventurous, eco-, self-sufficiently orientated and just any nice people who are interested in

• learning cordwood masonry,
• having a taste of a real rural living,
• seeing beauties of Russian nature and meeting friendly Russian people

TO JOIN US ANYTIME THAT’S CONVENIENT FOR YOU FROM JUNE 2011  TILL OCTOBER 2011.

Its FREE of charge!!!! In exchange for your help we will share cordwood technique with you, visit local Spiritual sites, and teach you some Russian too.  

We are placed about 4 hours drive from Moscow in Lipetsk region at the village called Rjavets. We will be happy to organise meeting at the Moscow airport for anyone who will be coming. We have various over night options: cheap B&B at the local straw bale house or free of charge in the tents on our land. The summer is generally very hot.  

Please feel free to discuss further details via blog or write to my email for more info: tarfi@mail.ru.

FROM RUSSIA WITH LOVE AND HOPE

Hi everybody!!!!! I am extrememly happy to announce that our temp shelter has been successfully built over the course of the last 3 days, which was long  May weekend in Russia. 

THAT WAS  ONE CRAZY WEEKEND!!!!

Our friends from the community helped us to build it. Special wholehearted THANK YOU to the following people: Alexander and Nadejda Lang, Jacob, Michael and Irina Helvig, Uri and Nadejda Kosiakov, Alexander and Valentina Zielke, Alexander Vishniakov, Sergei and Julia Antonov. 

Everybody worked very hard, and like it always happens in the fairtales – we hardly believed that we would manage to complete the shelter over 3 days. But we did have happy ending! We only have the roof to cover with waterproof material to avoid licking during raining times. But it will take  just few hours of work for two women. And it is certainly a piece of cake,  in comparision to the building of the hexagonal pyramidal roof.  

So here comes the technical details: the shelter has hexagonal shape with pyramidal roof. I chose the design simply by practical issue… with no true spiritual meaning behind it. Each side is roughly 3.3 meters, which makes about 32 m2. If we were to build rectangular house say 5×6 meters,  we would have spent more materials. Main material is roughly cut wood, about 12 kg of various sized nails, and water proof resin will go on top later. 

However, when  the house was miraculously finished, it appeared to have a very nice centering energy inside, of course partily, thanks to the community spirit, and partily, due to the unusual shape.  And i thought to myself, that when we will move into the main house, I will use this shelter as the office for my spiritual work. I then have looked online, and realised that hexagon is indeed rather esoterical symbol. First of all  sacred geometry symbols: mer-ka-bah and flower of life are in-built into the structure .  

I also found that in Hermetic alchemy, the septagram is related to the planetary/archonic spheres, which helps to connect to the certain planets. When I have discovered this particularity it instantly hit me… Eureka! When i was at Qumran (see my previous posts about Israeli trip),  I connected to Essenes while meditating. Most of the Essenes were ascended onto Arcturus (where they eventually came from) about 2000 years ago, and they assured that they gave me a code for instant connection to the Planet and those of the Essene Souls that remain on it. Since then Iwas puzzled to find what this code is? However, now having completed my hexagonal shelter, and discovered that it facilitates plantery connections…  I realised that this house is indeed my ‘code’ for connecting to my Star Family.  

Hexagonis also a symbol of balance and the union of complementary forces – namely feminine and masculine cosmic or archetypal energies (so is mer-ka-bah). In Eastern mysticism it represents the heart chakra and the union of consciousness (Shiva) and energy (Shakti).

In nature beehive honeycomb, snowflakes and quartz crystal all have hexagon structure. 

There is more info on hexagon on http://gogeometry.com/geometry/hexagon_nature_perfect_shape.htm

You can now guess that there were no questions on how to name it! so the shelter is called  ’Anahata-place‘ from now on! LOL

I feel like I am trully guided by my Higher Self, and even though sometimes i made choices by some very grounded factors, the deep sacred meaning is there but hidden, until my consciousness is ready to receive and perceive this information! 

ONCE AGAIN MY DEAR FRIENDS, HURRAH FOR THE CONSCIOUS AND GUIDED BY SPIRITS CREATION!

Below are pictures of our building process: 

I am trembling with excitement! We are just few hours away from building our temporary shelter that should serve us all the way through the summer till the main cordwood house is built (or at least pretty close to completion). :)

Although, deep inside I have a gypsy  soul (so does my husband)… We love travelling, and can’t stay at one place longer then 3 years, and we never had OUR house (we did bought one with mortgage, and it plunged to negative equity few months later. Bad idea, wrong timing, never mortgage again… LOL So technically and really, I belive we were just renting it off the bank for a while).  However, having two children by now, and still being houseless is something rather daunting…

Perhaps that  ’houselessness’ factor was the major motive for our movements, but it was also one of the main stress factors, and it made me personally feel rather confused and not much happy…

 BUT I am trembling with EXCITEMENT now!!! I can’t even sleep, ’cause tomorrow we will start building our shelter on our land, and there are only 26 days left till we finally move into our rent-free accommodation in the area with super-fertile soils, at the beautiful and secluded place!!!!!

I now really understand and able to perceive that very physical feeling of the moment when your dreams come true!!!!!!!!!!!

I am feeling like a party! Join me virtually or really… we have whole summer ahead!

MUCH LOVE TO ALL OF YOU

Joy of simple life

Last summer I was just simply living – Living in tune with mother Earth and her creatures! And that was wonderful! I stopped worrying about stuff that was happening around. I hardly checked internet and i had no tv (actually I sill have no TV). I was just enjoying our little things, and the only thing that worried me then was the draught. But that was fixable by the constant watering. I became very content and happy, and surely a lot less or even not at all polarized. I was happy to accept anything the way it came, as well as stand up for myself. That’s the result of my on-land experience, and I enjoyed each minute of it. I love Russia, and UK and the rest of the world, and I am still convinced of the huge positive impact of building self-sufficient eco-house on Lipetsk fertile soils. Although most of Russian people as well as my friends and relatives simply think I am mad.

‘Fundamentally’ personal on 10-10-10

Would you believe it: we started to build overground foundation on 10-10-10!!! Noone wanted to continue as soon as we reached “zero” point (the foundation is 1.5m deep underground, ‘zero’ means levelled with the ground) but it also had to be 0.4m overground. (building process had been described in greater details in my previous article: “Fundamentally Foundation”

Our helpers were worried that it would get cold and the foundation would be destroyed by the cold. But I was determined to finish it then, because I had this ‘gut feeling’ or ‘knowing’ that all be fine as long as we actually fnish the foundation this year ’cause we loose a lot of time if working on it in spring. The weather was ok, and foundation set nicely! But boy, it was hard job to persuade everyone in my rightiousness. Also building is a very hard work… i am not a builder nor do i have a lot of strength.. but its done now and everybody is happy!

Something rather remarkable happened due to that experience or due to 10-10-10, i am not really sure. But my understanding of life got clear or more profound. On that night from 10 to 11th of october, i saw ‘a person’ in my dream who said he was Melchizedek, and He greeted me and said that I was/am from His order, and He is happy to take me as his student… He didn’t really look like human, and most likely He didn’t have a substantial form either, however I call Him – ‘person’, simply for ease of understanding. I woke up very puzzled and surprised. I had not thought previously about Melchizedek, the only Melchizedek I knew was Drunvalo, who was / is amasing, very humble human Being and I love Him dearly. I didn’t have time to think much of the dream ‘cause we were working withing tough dead-lines on our foundation.

Dream on 13-10-10

Then on 13th – the day we were finishing it, I saw another dream, in sort of semi-lucid state, almost awake! The same man showed me my true identity, and I even felt it!!! I hadactually managed to remember my Over Soul or Higher self or whatever it is called but eternal part of me that is part of God and as huge as the Galaxy or something on those sizes!!!! I had been shown that I am very Grand, loving and powerful Eternal ‘Being’. I was created from the God as well as many others (all of us actually) in order to be God’s co-creators. and I did really felt it! To actually experience what I felt physically during this dream is so different from reading similar information in the book or hearing from another person. This time i really felt (got!) who I AM and believed in it!

Path of Infinite Being

At our initial birth we are as intelligent, powerful and limitless as one can imagine. We each get various interesting tasks to create, have fun and progress further. I was shown scenes from my past experiences as a huge eternal Being. E.g. at one stage I was given task to create new live planet. I did it with love, ease and happy smile. My planet was so cute, sort of similar to Earth. And then I was told that doing these various tasks we earn points in billions of years of life. And for that task I had earned 5 billions of years of life. at different points of existence Souls want to come and incarnate on Earth to earn a lot of points, cause the difficulty of earthly incarnation is that through the birth of physical body we forget our powers and over soul. But each soul is so assured that it would remember that we eager to get born on earth in human body. I then was shown rather few of my human incarnations (very briefly, sort of at extremely high speed) but as an example that those times I could not have remembered my true identity and who I AM. I was enjoying earthly life in human body, doing all the ‘sinful’ earthly things, and not worrying ‘a thing’ about eternity and creativity. Those times I earned a bit of negative points that reduced my positive billions.
However, when ‘Past Lives’ Movie finished I was told: “OK, now you have remembered everything. And from now on you surely know and won’t forget who you truly are, so please don’t spoil this earthly incarnation, and make actions like you did when created that beautiful lovely planet. You just have to do / create things orderly so to demolish the chaos around. You are already creating heaven on earth, but you were doing it unconsciously, now you have to start creating beauty consciously. Just remember that its simple, easy and fun.” I felt so happy, content and at peace after that dream’. Life on Earth got the special meaning for me now.
I realized that by building a house and creating and merging into new life-style (self-sufficient, eco, earth-loving) I am creating a little heaven on Earth and that is utterly important task even though it is so small, as its just about me and my family.

Watch this space for building updates, and more spiritual insights! NAMASTE